**my dear friend KS went to memory park for A and me on P's birthday. i thought i would share the pictures she shared with me. thanks KS for doing that... you are awesome!!**
18 months ago... i had a nightmare... but it was a nightmare that would not end... for days i would sleep, but couldn't sleep... oh to just sleep and wake up and the nightmare would be over... but it was reality... a really hard, blow in the stomach, knock you out reality... as days, weeks, months and what seems like years passed... this nightmare was bearable and i could see little by little the blessings that came from it. i'm not saying that this was at all a good thing or a great thing at that, but that God can use bad things for good... He can turn bad to bring glory to Himself... and i think that's what He did and is still doing in all that has happened.
as Job was tested... he says, "the Lord gives and He takes away, but my heart will choose to say Lord blessed be your name". (not directly from the bible, but the idea...) this is what i want to choose to say daily... God you are the one that gives and you are the one that takes... so nightmares may come and the earth may shake and i may be faint and weary, but i am going to choose to say in all these circumstances... Blessed be the name of the Lord.
18 months, what seems like years, has been quite a journey for both A and i, but He is good... that's all i have to say. i can't do squat, but He can... so therefore here i am miles and miles away from family and friends, obeying what the Lord has for me, not because i can, but because He does.
tomorrow is the last day of work before a 3 week vacation. i am very excited and can't wait to spend time with my daughter and friends.
please continue to pray for safety and also for us as the holidays approach.
