I go back to the rights... as I watched it... my insides just turned. People living in constant war. My friend's daughter, which is actually funny because her daughter is my age, is in Africa and about a week ago experienced a mob of people coming to where she worked to get medical care. People were going crazy for the things we take for granted. I mean as I watched women being raped, children being brainwashed, men being slaughtered... and to think that really happens. I wonder what do we do? I mean my stomach turns now at how I am in a nice house in front of my nice computer living a pretty good life and these people constantly have to think and plan of what will happen if the rebels come.
In "Blood Diamond", one of the characters who is a reporter says a line that is so true, yet so sad. A native person asks if she was going to write about them. When she says yes, the native is like, then people will come and help right? Her response is something to the effect of, "the news will show up somewhere between sports and weather and people won't think twice about it."
How is it that we have become so numb to what is going on around the world? How is it that we are okay that people are not eating? not drinking? How are we okay with the fact that human rights are taken away?
News all around the world of horrible things going on... Japan and the earthquake... Middle East in constant war... Africa with hunger, water, AIDS, war... The reporter is right... I too do the same, actually I'm pretty much out of touch of the news world and sadly to say, get my news from Facebook. Japan would probably have not effected me much if my friends were not there.
Today in my class we read an article about Japan's earthquake. I almost cried in class... with a class that was full of about 97 % that were on their way to hell... I was reading about another how many percent that have gone there. My heart broke today in class thinking of Christless lives... My heart ached for them.
I'm scared going back to America. I'm scared I may become desensitized, numb to these things when I'm not in it... I pray for continual passion for His kingdom for His glory and that I won't be a channel switcher, but a prayer warrior for those people suffering.
On the flip side of all this, I praise God for the blessing of being born and raised in the states. I praise Him for bringing my family to the states before I was born and giving us a life that would probably not have been achieved in Korea. I think I would have been a real rebellious child if I was raised in Korea. I praise Him for His provision and work in my life.
I question things in life, but I'm ashamed to say that I don't ever ask God, why He chose to have me be born in the states and so many others in Africa or Iran or in the slums of India? I only ask when life is hard and seems unfair... I look at my life compared to those in other places and I bow my head in shame for thinking I deserve something when they don't even have food and water. How selfish and inward I am!!!
Which takes me to another point, which has nothing to do with this, but the selfish inward part... I work with mostly college students and they are all about facebook and twitter. I have to say I agree with a sermon I heard that all those things are about me... When are we going to get over ourselves and be about God? Don't take this wrong, I am saying this to myself... Get over yourself ERP... it's not about you... it's about God, always has been and always should be.
I started reading through Acts again... How I long to be filled with the Spirit like those apostles... mmm Let your spirit fall Lord!!!
