thank you to all of you who have been praying for us to be healthier. my throat, that had been hurting for three days - couldn't really swallow and just scratchy, is all better now. A's cold is getting better and she's doing well. thank you for your prayers and PRAISE God for answering them.
we have 5 days left and we are meeting lots of people to say good-bye... had to cancel a couple cuz we were under the weather, but now we are back on. really trying to make it so we are taking care of ourselves as much as spending time with people. so if we cancel or have already cancelled on you, please forgive us.
it's getting to be a better winding down this life of mine... all my things at LM and GM's house and just sorting and weighing things out. soon i will be done and i don't have to worry about it anymore.
i was talking to a friend the other night and a question came up... "what will it take for us to know that God is worth it? what will it take for us to know that we can trust Him?"... i really don't know... i feel like i knew those things before, but not like i do now... so does it really take death? i think the answer is no... God makes it so easy for us... i mean all He asks us to do is COME... once we COME, with all our heart to see what the author of our life as for us, then... man it's pure joy from there on. no it's not easy, by all means, i'm not telling you it's easy... like i said, i thought i knew God was worth it and I thought i could trust Him, but it took me P's death and some months of questioning the foundations of what I believed to come to a place that i am. i am also not saying i'm perfect because God is surely showing me and letting me know the sins in my life on a daily basis and asking me to repent... turn from those things. i just want to ask though... isn't He worth it? can't we trust Him? can we do all this without having our lives shaken first? what will it take?
God is so good... i have to keep saying that... many blogs ago, i talked about how P made me sing "God is so good" when i did not want to... there are certain things that i am so glad P and i talked about before this... that song is one, but we talked about when we wanted A to date, how we would want her to grow, morals, tv shows, values as a family... i just feel like God blessed me with those talks, so now as a single mom, i don't have to worry that i'm doing wrong... we already talked about it... of course some things we may have talked about, but i do it differently because of circumstances or his opinion was stronger in one than i was... :)
5 days left... it's almost midnight and i should get to bed...
thanks for praying, but please keep praying!!!
