tonight after A and i took a shower, we were in my room getting dressed and A says to me, "mommy, i don't like myself". i was like what??? i'm thinking you're only three, this is for later like when you're 12 or 13... so i asked her what she didn't like about herself. she says "knee"... i was like you don't like your knee and she says, "no mommy i don't like my name." i was shocked. i didn't know what to say... i of course didn't stop the conversation though and asked what she would like to be called. she gave me her middle name. she wants to called by her middle name now. i told her that was fine since that is her middle name... then she tells me, "when my friends come over tomorrow, could you tell them to call me by my middle name?" i told her that would be hard to ask of them since they already knew her as A. we were talking about this til she was in bed and still as we were doing bedtime routine. i told her that i really like her name and that daddy and i chose that name for a lot of different reasons. i told her the reasons... and in the end she said, "but i still want to be E". i didn't know what to say. i tried to joke with her about how i wanted to be called something else too, but she didn't get it. i was still to be mommy and she was going to be E. so we'll see how she is tomorrow, but as of now, my daughter has changed her name to E. just so you all know.
(i'm in disbelief that i'm going through this. if it was like a silly thing, i could take it, but that the conversation started with her not liking herself... i need to take child psychology. :) )
