now that we are here and starting the new, we find ourselves also mourning the old. we both miss our home and our friends, our church family and are finding ourselves comparing, not on purpose but would be like, "remember in chicago..." new is good, but it is also a sad and hard time. we love our new house and have been making it a very "P girls"-ish house. there are definite touches of us all over the house... our favorite is our new pink pull out couch that we got for our guest/entertainment room.
as i transition and begin to settle here, i realize that these past couple months i haven't had time, space or the strength to sit and think and reflect on that's going on, i just kept going, had things to do and i was the only one that could get it done. saturday our friend, JM, who drove with us to orlando left... that departure set it off for me to begin my grief and really feel the void of all the knowns. today A is at a camp where she will be picked up and dropped off daily for this week. my drive home after dropping her off was full of tears. tears of sadness, tears of grief, tears of relief, tears of joy, tears of mourning, tears of release...
it's only been a week and four days, but it feels like so long ago. JM and i worked night and day trying to get so much done before she left so that i didn't have to do so much on my own. there are still things to get done, but i feel like i need to give my body a rest. our new place has stairs, which my body is not used to. :) so carrying heavy things up and down the stairs about 100 times a day, my legs are soar, my body is soar and my heart just needs some time to catch up to where we are. that's why instead of emptying the few boxes i have left and sorting through things and even making calls i need to make, i'm taking time to cry, blog and even rest today so that my heart, mind and body could all be together feeling and experiencing the same thing. i think in the midst of chaos and getting things done, we automatically numb certain parts of us so that we could get the work done, which works for some time, but if you do that too long, it's going to backfire and you'll find yourself in a mess. i don't want to be in that state, so... today is a jj heller, tea and a good book kind of day.
thank you so much everyone for praying for us during this time of our life and continuing to support us in so many ways. please continue to pray for us as we settle... MY BIGGEST PRAYER REQUEST RIGHT NOW IS FINDING A CHURCH COMMUNITY. we have visited a couple and are continuing seeking, but please pray that we could find a good fit.
we live in a townhouse. our backyard is all woods and off to the right (about 50 feet) there is a pond and this is what we get to see during the day. God's creation is so beautiful!!
