today i got the morning to just be alone. our good friend took A to the park and i just stayed in my room. i prayed... i cried... i read... i sang... i cried... throughout all that, i realized how this was like the first time i actually got time to do exactly that. i feel like for the past almost two weeks all i have been doing is going going going without being able to stop and just mourn. there were mornings and some time, but not like this i don't think. i really felt the Lord's presence as i mourned. i felt Him telling me how He has everything in control and i felt Him showing me His hand in all that has happened. it is definitely hard to accept and process through all this, but i feel at such peace knowing that everything was and is in His hands.
slowly, day by day, i know the Lord will heal.
we are going to kansas on sunday. we will attend the service there sunday evening at 6. then i will spend some time going through some of our stuff and spend time with family. we will return on wednesday.
thanks for you love and support.
p.s. A has some good friends playing with her here at the house. it's great and they are so cute together.
