it's so funny how hallmark could make or break a day for us huh? like valentine's day... women wait around hoping to get a box of chocolate or a dozen roses... or sweetheart day... or grandparents day (never heard of it til a few years ago).... not to say that we shouldn't celebrate the ones we love... but that particular day??? have to get a card or go out to jared's and get something great for someone perfect... don't mean to sound like a scrooge, but as i walked around macy's today, looking for a gift that A could buy me, i started to cry... not because i felt pitiful i was essentially getting myself a mother's day gift, but thinking of how if P was here i wouldn't have done it... he would have already gotten me a gift and taken me out for a good meal... made a poster with A and hung it in my room... all those things and more... then i thought to myself of the random times (maybe like 4 times), P would hand me some money and tell me to go get something for myself and drive me to my favorite stores... so i thought of that as my eyes were watering... and that's what i did... just thought of it as him giving me money and i went to go get myself something nice. although i did make A pick out my gift... i took her to the purse section and she picked one... i really like it too... of course i coaxed her a little with the style that i may like, but ha ha... nonetheless she got me a great gift... we both missed P a lot today... she did say again, "i wish daddy were here with us." so here a great day in which we remember mothers... where hallmark kind of took over... but again a day that we should honor our mothers... they deserve it don't they...
my mom... she's a great mom. sacrificed a lot for us over the years. she worked hard for all of us and loved us well. the most important job she carries out is praying for each of her daughters every morning at about 5... she'll wake up (and unless she is really ill), she'll go to church and get on her knees and pray for us... that's why each of us girls are who we are now. thanks mom for all that you did and do for us... keep praying for us... we still need it... your little babies.
JS... you became of one moms... you loved me and took me in as one of the children of your heart. you watched as P and i grew to love each other and told me he was up to something the day before he proposed. you took me for who i was and heard everything i had to say. i love you.
TB... although you are not really old enough to be my mom, you definitely took on not only that role but much more when we came by you guys... i knew you were someone i could call at any time and know there wasn't going to be any judgment as to what i said or how i said it. you walked me through some of the toughest times of my life and loved me through it all. thanks... you are such a blessing.
EP... P's mom... you took me in since the first time i walked through your door. you gave me hugs and encouraged me... always telling me how i was the perfect one for your son... how he waited for me... even now... thanks. he loved you mom... he really appreciated the way you taught him how to memorize scripture. you were a good mom to him and i really love the way he turned out... i mean that's why i married him right? i love you!!!
LJM... i was shattered into pieces when you took me in... you never pushed me to do anything but be myself and waited until i was ready. you were always so good at giving me hugs and letting me know you were there. you had great meals ready for us, i never had to really lift a finger. you really made me feel at home and part of the family. i don't know where i would be without you and your family... thank you so much!!! i love you.
the other day i was listening to k-love and they were talking about how there is not only the biological mother, but the spiritual mothers... i pray that some day A will be blessed with people like the ones i mentioned above.
mother's day... i don't think it would have been so rough if it wasn't so commercialized, but i do think it's a very important day... look at all the moms i have. i love you all!!!
