my daughter learned the phrase "i wish..." that's a pretty challenging phrase... it's good to wish and have hope, but to teach her that not all you wish for comes true. that what we desire in life may not always be what God wants... for example, she played on a child sized john deer tractor with her friends and she came up to me and said, "mommy, i wish i had that at our house." funny right... or she'll see someone with something she's never seen before and wants, she'll look at me and say, "mommy, i wish i had ..." and fills in the blank. those are rather simple things that she wishes for and also rather simple for me to answer. we talk about needs and wants and how that all works... tough for a three year old, but hopefully it will teach her something for the long run.
the one thing she wishes for that i am at a loss for words is... "mommy, i wish daddy was here"... she has been saying this at times where she feels like we are having a good time... like the other day when we went on our date and today when we went to see "sesame street live". all i could say is, "yeah me too". how could she not?? i don't know what sparks her to miss her daddy or want her daddy at those moments, but i definitely see families with their kids, especially dads with their kids on their shoulder and think... "ugh... that's what he would be doing." so here we are months later... actually in about 9 days it will be 11 months... next month it will be a year... still missing him and wanting him to do the things that he did... wanting him to still be our daddy/husband.
please pray for little A... through all that she is still grieving and cannot express. also pray for her, with all the traveling we have been doing and will do, her immune system is off. she's starting to show signs of a cold. please keep her in your prayers.
