a week and three days left. most of my stuff in bags, weeding through them and then doing it again. all the furniture gone (except for the ones that were here). cleaning left. going to stay at LM and GM's house in a few days before i leave. a whole ray of emotions... excited, sad, lonely, hopeful, mad, all those crazy feelings...
people have asked how i'm doing...
what seems like years ago is actually only been a year... and here i am moving on to what the Lord has for me next. the joy of the Lord is my strength. i do good on most days, once in a while, not so good. i have confidence that the Lord will provide. He is good and although sometimes my plans don't turn out the way i wanted it to, i have learned that His plans are so much better. no i would not have wanted my life to be what it is today, but i am so thankful for the way the Lord has shown Himself to me throughout this year, throughout my process/journey... not that i don't want P back, but if this is the way God wanted this relationship with me, i can't say it wasn't worth it. because the truth of the matter is, i'm going to see P again and compared to the eternity we are going to have together with our Lord and Savior, this is nothing. i realize the temporaryness of this life and that what we are to do in this world is give glory to God. so it sucks that P is gone and it sucks that A's daddy is not going to be around to help grow her, but the Lord will provide... He loves us too much not to. He will go before us and give us a place to lay our heads, He'll provide men in A's life that will be a man figure in her life, He'll protect us, He'll do what He sees best for us (even when it doesn't make sense) and in the end when we get to see Him face to face, we'll see the glory of it all and see so much more how worth it, it was.
so i am working at starting a new chapter in my life and closing this one...
please pray for me... pray for A... the people we will be with and meet... health and safety... pray for KS & JS as they are taking us over...
