A counselor that I know said that the first two years of a person’s life after a spouse passes, anything is possible. He said that it’s like the two years you could be crazy and do whatever you want and it’s normal. :) My counselor told me that it is true that people do crazy things and it’s considered normal, but she thought there is no time limit since everyone is different.
I thought about that this past week as my friend jokingly said I only have 7 more months to be crazy. Ha ha… so I thought about it because I have done some really crazy things after P died. Actually I guess it’s not so crazy but it was totally not me… I have travelled more in these past 17 months than I have in my whole 29 years of life… I have tried things I could never imagine myself to do before and felt so proud afterward… I have probably offended some people…. I have probably been braver on some things thinking of how short life could be… I have gone on roller coasters which I hate… so again they may not sound so crazy to you, but for me… pretty out of the ordinary. But I have to say, I haven’t had those urges for a while now. I feel like that craziness has died down a bit. Although there a few things I would like to do… probably sooner than later like I said because I know that life is short and I would really like to do some cool things. So if the Lord wills it… I will go for those soon.
So if I have offended you, worried you, troubled you, …. I’m sorry. I was clinically crazy. :) And according to some, I still have time to be crazy. :)
