Confidence is shown from the time you take your first step to the time you go to your first job interview… to the first time you get behind the wheel… to the first time you tell your special someone you love them… to the first time you tell someone they are annoying you… a lot of situations need confidence and it is shown in different ways and in front of a variety of people…
What does confidence look like in front of God? I think I sometimes mistake people who are confident to people who are proud. Therefore even though I am confident in certain things, I think that I’m being proud and do not share the confidence due to the fear of looking proud, which of course in Asian culture is like a serious NO NO.
Christ gives us confidence in salvation and if we live in that confidence I think our lives would be different, not just different, but radically different. How much will our words and actions hold meaning if they were done in the confidence of Christ?
I don’t know if I’m making any sense… it’s 9:15 the day after I moved to my new house and I’m beat… but maybe this will make sense…
I’m learning how to pray in confidence… and I could only compare it to A and my relationship. You see I don’t think any of A’s questions are dumb (although sometimes I think they are a little funny) nor do I think any of her requests are nonsense (although sometimes they are like way out there)…. She knows mommy will answer the questions she asks and that she could ask anything and mommy will do it for her, sometimes… I think of how confident she is around me… could be so silly and crazy, but when she’s in front of new people it takes time for her… it’s because I’m here mom… in a non-comparable but almost similar way, God is our father and he doesn’t think that we ask dumb questions nor does he think our requests are nonsense, I think more so He delights in the fact that we could come before Him with anything. Of course maybe His answer isn’t going to be exactly what we had wanted, but He’s our father… I go to the verse where it talks about how if a son asks for fish, who would give him a snake... how much more than our heavenly father, listens to us. I’ve found such comfort in that verse lately… and many more about prayer. God is listening and the Spirit is ready to petition for us… so where is our confidence in what the Lord wants and desires to do for us?
I’ve prayed about many things these past weeks… prayed for direction… prayed for a house… prayed for a car… prayed for specific things to fall into place… all these things I’ve prayed for in a new kind of confidence… God’s been so good… every petition has been answered in ways far greater than I could imagine. Awesome is our God. He is so good. There are still prayers that need to be answered, but I could totally feel God’s face shining upon me and that He is delighting in the way that I have been surrendering to Him lately…
Lord thank you…
