when A started eating baby food, we would pray with her before she ate. as she started learning words, i taught her a korean prayer that's a cute little song for kids that is specifically for before you eat. as A started putting phrases together one of the first things she would say was, "pray _______" and would fill in the blank with people in her life. this would happen at any time of the day, most of the time multiple times during the day, stopping her daddy or me from whatever we were doing to put her in our lap so that we could pray for whoever she brought up. at times it would be people that we had been praying for, others it would be random, but mostly it was for the kids that played at our house, her aunts and uncles and us. a little after she turned 2, P started meeting with a guy, JR. he was not a believer and P and this other guy from our school would meet with him often, telling him about Christ and walking him through that process. during that time JR came to our house a lot and loved on A, so naturally she began saying, "pray JR". but he was the focus of her prayer for like two weeks at one point. at the end of those two weeks, P got a call from JR telling him that he accepted Jesus as his Savior and couldn't wait to tell us about it. i don't think at that time she fully understood what it meant to be a believer, but i have no doubt that she was used by God through those prayers we lifted up.
at age two, A lost her daddy. through many discussions, A began to understand more and more that daddy was in heaven. she learned that for her to get to heaven she needed to believe in Jesus and that's all she needed to know. as she grew, she understood more and more what it meant to believe in Jesus, that believing in Jesus isn't about daddy. believing in Jesus was about her and her sin. i remember a time last year when she came up to me and told me that she was dirty because she is a sinner. then she told me that she wanted to write a book so that people could know that and believe in Jesus so that they could be clean and go to heaven. her theology grew.
when A was four, she asked me if she could be baptized. i told her that i would like her to be a little older so she could understand what it means and remember that special day. she argued me saying that she believes in Jesus and that she should be baptized. maybe it wasn't a fight i should have fought, but i really thought she should be older.
about a month ago, our church announced that there would be a day of baptism in august and that if anyone was interested that they should talk to one of the pastor's. i brought it up to A and told her to pray about it. she said she wanted to, so we went to talk to a pastor. as the days passed and we were praying about being baptized, talking about it and stuff, i guess A was processing the whole thing... a couple weeks after having met the pastor, A comes up to me during our quiet time and says, "mom, i want to believe in Jesus so i could remember this time." she brought me this book she was reading for her quiet time that had a prayer written in it for those who wanted to commit their life to Christ. she read through it on my lap and then walked off to finish her quiet time.
today, my little girl was baptized in lake michigan. it was a proud moment for me as well as an emotional experience. my little girl... the more she grows the heavier the responsibility i feel as a mom. i pray and lately i feel like wow i need to be on my knees more for this little one, who actually isn't so little anymore.
please be praying with me for this little one!!!
