i'm not trying to promote a movie. i happen to watch this movie (at least a part of it) on the plane when i was coming back to the states from indonesia. i really enjoyed. i bought it and watched it a few times since then. tonight as i packed i watched it and watch the last part in bed as i was winding down. i cried my eyes out watching it. without giving the movie away... the movie is about a girl getting married and doesn't know who her father is. anyway... as i watched her looking for her father and then wanting her father to walk her down the aisle... i just sobbed. it's a musical so there is a lot singing... two parts made me cry really hard... one was when the mom is getting her ready for the wedding and she sings this song about her little girl growing up... i just thought, one day that maybe me... the other part was when ... wait i will give the movie away if i say that part... but i cried during the wedding. anyway... i just think about what kind of mother i am going to be in the years to come... and then pray that the Lord will walk me through every step of A's milestones as she walks through them too.
i know i mentioned in one of my earlier blogs about the gilmore girls... again not promoting any movie or show, but i have to say i do like the relationships the mothers have with their daughters... i pray that in a godly way i may have that kind of relationship with my little girl.
i'm learning more and more each day what we are meaning for each other... i dread the day she grows up and i have to let go... as much as i am trying to be there for her, she has been a pillar for me through this time of my life. God knew i couldn't do this alone... so He prepared her for me... to be my team (as P called the three of us). praying that as much as we depend on each other, we'd both learn to depend on the Lord more and more each day of our lives.
today was a pretty hard day... missing P... running errands... missing home (both indonesia and the home we had together... "home is where you are" is what we used to say to each other...)...
