these past few days, A and i have been trying to bond. that may sound funny, but we have had several rough days, so i feel like i need to establish stability for her by bonding a little. so i do things a little different at times so she knows that i love her and want to care for her. to some it may sound like spoiling, to me it's loving and meeting her where she needs to be met.
for naps, i have been singing to her until she falls asleep in my arms, which is only like 15 minutes max. it's a relaxing time for me to just sit with the girl i love the most and sing, and it's a sense of security for her. just now as i put her down for a nap, i saw some features that she has that are from P. her hands for one are just like his... her eyelashes are definitely from him too (gorgeous knockout lashes)... the top half of her nose... and much more, but i was thinking how beautiful she is.
P told A since she was born that she couldn't date until 30... ha ha... now i think the same way... she's so beautiful, not just on the outside, but her heart is so gentle (and as she grows, i'm praying she'll have a heart like her savior)... what am i going to do to take down all the boys that will be after her?
daddy's little princess is growing.
my friend just had a baby and as i held her today and looked at A, i just thought, "where does the time go?" - and she's only 3. i know there are people who feel that about their kids going off to college, getting married, having kids... ugh... praying my little girl will be solid in her faith that when she goes out, even though my heart will break, i'll know that she has someone far greater than me looking out for her.
my pastor, RB, told me how God cares for her and loves her more than i could ever... that truth is amazing and so comforting... thank you God.
so i feel like our rough days are coming to an end and i'm just going to have to love her and meet her where she is at. it's a challenge to do that and still lay down the law, but it's been so much better. please continue to pray for me about that.
