the lord has been so good to me. i feel like He is not walking beside me, but definitely ahead of me... lighting my every path and allowing me to see what great things He has in store for me. about a month ago, i decided to go back to the country in which we left 10 and a half months ago. there were lots of thoughts in making this decision, but the Lord again walking before me gave me peace and i have seen His hand work so clearly through this process and now as i prepare to go back. i have to thank those of you who have been praying for me... without you i would not be where i am today. thanks for being my support. please continue to pray for A and i as we embark this new journey in our lives. yes there are a lot of unknowns which i feel like could cause anxiety, but knowing that the Lord is going before me, i feel at peace with everything.
as you all know my computer is broken and thanks to NA, it is being fixed. that in itself was an answer to pray also. best buy had asked me to pay a lot to fix it and knowing i needed it, i just put it in. i had contacted a few people to see if they could help, but i did not get a response. but a couple days after i put it into best buy, i got a message saying that NA could fix it. praise God. i called best buy and again praise God that they hadn't shipped it out yet and i even got my deposit back!!! YEAH!!! so now it's getting fixed. i have been able to check e-mail since JH let me use his extra iphone... then JM came with her extra laptop. so here i am working hard on her laptop now. thanks to all these great people!!! oh yeah and KS that drove to best buy to pick up my computer to take to NA's, since i couldn't do it because A was sick. you guys all rock!!! praise God for the body of Christ that comes together to help each other.
my weeks have been a little crazy and only is going to get crazier, but i enjoy seeing the way God orchestrates things in the midst of all this.
this past week without a computer and A being sick, i felt like God was giving me time to rest before the big storm. so when A was laying on the couch i would lay with her and spend time with her... when she took a nap i laid with her... we took it so slow those days... then the days got busy...
P's parents came into town. that was a real treat. A loves her grandparents and it was so fun to see her have a good time with them. the best thing was seeing her swim with grandpa... she loves those floaties and is so brave!!!
on sunday i did something that i would have never done and now i will probably never do again. ha ha... since P died, i feel like there are so many things in life that i have not tried and wanted to at least try, i mean what have you got to loose... so when a friend asked me to do a 5K with her i said yes. the race was yesterday and 7 of us from my church and P's dad did the race together. everyone was on different paces... most trained, i did not. i ran like four days out of the six weeks of training we were supposed to do. so yesterday i was hurting running the race i did not train for. left in the dust of the other 7 people i thought of the importance of training... thought of how much better i would have done if i trained... thought of how in life we have to train ourselves for the things to come, especially as followers of Christ... i was a little embarrassed being the last of the group (our group-there were still lots of people behind me). anyway i crossed the finish line, went to the alley, threw up, met with the group and cried. i had all these emotions inside of me... how i actually did it - not my best, but i didn't quit... how i wished P was at the finish line to give me a big hug... how i knew he would be so proud of me, whether i trained or not that i did something like that... how we really don't know what tomorrow holds and so we need to live our fullest... how i did better than my goal... all these thoughts went through my head and the rest of the day i cried periodically... still i can't tell you all that i was feeling when i finished that race, but it was an accomplishment... i don't ever want to do it again, but if i do, i definitely am going to train for it... or else like today, i am not going to be able to move. thanks for those of you cheering me on and running with me... LI, LM, KS, LC, BA, FI, RP, BR, GM and JS. every time i hear the cowbell i will run now. ha ha... (hope to get picture soon)
please pray for A and i as the time is winding down for us to go. our flight leaves june 9th. tomorrow we will have 6 weeks left. pray for our hearts as we go back for a year... especially little A... don't know how much she understands, but praying that the Lord will lead her little heart through all this.
**type on monday - posted on tuesday**
