Jesus has whispered His love for me throughout my life, like sweet nothings lovers whisper to eat other... this past year He's been screaming His love for me, making sure that not only i know, but others around me know how much He loves me. it's kind of embarrassing because i'm really not worth being loved this much, but i love it... soaking in every bit of His love for me, wanting to in turn reply with my love for Him. i don't know if anyone knows how it feels to be loved... it's crazy...
when P and i started dating, he would do sweet little things for me, just to know that he liked me. he would leave notes on my computer at work, leave flowers on my car (which he got caught by his friend SC in the school parking lot), and bring hot drinks to my house so we could take walks. i would feel so special and you know all those feelings in the pit of your stomach that comes when you see him... and i think, that's from and imperfect person... how much more than does my Savior love me, the perfect definition of love. i feel those fluttering feelings when i think of what He's going to do next for me. i live a day for the day... not for tomorrow for we do not know what tomorrow holds or even if there will be a tomorrow... so each day i wake to think what my Lord and Savior has in store for me... and sometimes it's the beautiful flowers on the side of the road as A and i walk down to catch our public transportation... sometimes it's the note of hope i read in psalms... sometimes it's in the eyes of a little baby... but when i see those, i know my Savior loves me... and He doesn't want me to miss it... He wants me to see it. but it can't stop there... when you are loved and you love the other, you pronounce your love to the person and then to people... that's what P and i did when we got married. he pronounced his love to me for the first time in a quiet little park in park ridge and then on our wedding day, it wasn't to just each other, but we were telling people that we would love each other til death do us part... and that's what we did. just like a wedding where people proclaim their love for each other in front of lots of people, i want to proclaim my love for my Savior. i love you Jesus!!!
my Lord gives me confidence... for things i didn't even know i had a lack of confidence in. He is my confidence!!!
please pray for A&i this week...
1. health and safety
2. A's heart as she plays with kids. it's hard to share at the age of three. we've been talking lots about loving others and sharing... i want to respect her, but also want to teach her how to share and love others.
3. we are traveling july 9-11. (8th night-11morning US time) please pray for safe travels and protection from other drivers.
4. future plans. came here in obedience to our Lord and now praying through some options of what i could do.
