the last day of may... i was thinking about being a single mom the other day and realized that i've been a single mom for two years in may. P went to the capital city to do his course in may... that's when my single parenting started. yes it is quite different from that month, since i could at least talk to him once or twice or three times a day, now i'm really seriously all on my own. so yes his two years since he was out of the house and i was on my own.
the last day of may and i'm really sad that i'm not in the states having bbqs with people. i miss bbqs. nice warm weather, friends around the yard chatting or playing games, the smell of the charcoal burning and a nice juicy steak on the grill, kids running around laughing, ice boxes with cold cold diet cokes... awwww...
the last day of may... in seven days i will be moving!!! there will be things i will miss about this apartment, but i will definitely enjoy my own place!!! waiting room for house all done!!! we are moving to actually what americans would call an apartment... a two bedroom, one living room, a guest room, kitchen, one bathroom apartment. it's on the second floor in a nice quiet neighborhood!!! woo hoo... Delight in the Lord and He will give you the desires of your heart... Yes Lord i choose to delight in you!!!
the last day of may... i miss my girlfriends lately... KS and AH for the wednesday night pow wows... SR for our hangouts with our girls... BR for our dates to watch movies or whatnot... TB for the text messages we would send to each other and phone calls at all hours of the night, because i was the only one that texted her... RB for living in the same house, she always knew what i needed, whether it was some peace from A or guacamole from the fruit market, she was there... Moms day out girls!!! i miss our study and lunch!!! BS and MS, the two ladies at Bethel who took us out for breakfast... breakfast food sounds sooo good, especially from Sally's... and all my other girl friends. i miss you all. maybe you all could come here for my birthday!!! woo hoo... E's turning 30!!! - i'm so excited that JM is coming... so i don't miss her, just looking forward to her coming and maybe KO too... ha ha...
the last day of may... means that tomorrow is june... it's the middle of the year already and it marks two years since P's been gone.
the last day of may... the Lord is putting rays of sunshine in my life... my hope grows and i trust that the Lord is planning something great in my life. some days it definitely does not feel like it, but even in those days, i will choose to trust that He is good and faithful to the ones He loves.
please pray with me as i ask the Lord to continue to pursue me. i want to have more of Him and less of me in my life.
please pray for A and me as we travel to the beach on wednesday to spend some time with friends. we'll be back sunday.
please pray for a friend as i got a chance to share this past week with him.
