my plans tomorrow are to go to A's school to be the room mom. then we'll come home and have lunch, take a rest and probably go to the Y. i guess at some point i'll have to do some work... i have tons and tons of school work to do. but the thing is those are just my plans. who knows what is going to happen...
today i sat through a very long lecture planning my future. our schedule for summer and fall are online so here i am in this class that felt so dry arranging my future. i figured out my fall schedule and looked to see what i could do in order to finish this program in the three years that i planned to do school. it is going to be crazy. the thing is the "ideal" schedule to finish in three years is 15 credit hours a semester. i have not been doing that, so i'm taking extra classes in the summer to "catch up" with the "ideal" schedule.
this summer i am taking three classes. it is going to be intense... like i said before, i will not have a life until july, which is really stinky!! the thing i thought about this week as i was thinking about all this is... i guess i have two choices... do everything at once as a full time student or take it slow and do it while i work. the down side of the latter choice is that i have a great scholarships right now that are helping me out and if i don't do full time, then i lose my scholarships. so that's one of the reasons that i want to do this all right now!!
anyway... as i was planning my future, i just smiled to myself because i am really putting God in a box. i mean seriously... i could do all this planning and God could do a million things to make it go another way. i have thought about how God could call us somewhere all of a sudden and we'll move overseas again... or the long awaited man of our dreams will show up and i'll get married... or God could ask me to do something else... or i may need to go back to work for one reason or another... or... or... or...
i think of all the plans that i have had over the years and how most of them didn't turn out exactly the way i planned it. i thought of all the things i've wanted to do and have to really pray about what God wanted and sometimes didn't know until i stepped into to find out what was going to happen. i think of the english center P and i were planning on opening in indo... how that dream was put out there a few many times... and it never happened. i think about making the decision to go back to indo just me and A. i think about how i really wanted to be married by the time A was 5 so that she wouldn't have such a big gap without a dad... all these plans...
plans... we could make them, but God makes the path... and i am going to trust that the Lord continues to provide for us. i am taking it one day at a time... one semester at a time. what the Lord does with that i will follow in obedience... i just ask that He gives me the ears to hear and the strength to follow. i know the joy in following the Lord and i want to continue that.
