today marks 5 months. (I can't say, as i usually say, that it feels like 5 months.) today A saw her first snow. (she kept calling it rain.) :) today PR had an awesome message. today i am excited to start a new chapter after having closed the other one. today my heart hurts, but does not ache like it used to. today i could remember good instead of just the bad. today is a new day. then comes tomorrow... tomorrow will be a new day... the sun will come out (hopefully) and i will see God's glory all around me and live that new day to the fullest. great is thy faithfulness oh Lord my God.
i miss P. a friend sent a picture of P that i have never seen before that made me laugh. it was him jumping for the garter at his friend's wedding. the thing is he was like a whole head and a half higher than all the other guys. that's my man. it was good to see that. after i saw that, i remembered a desire i had to ask of friends and family, which i will ask now. i want to make a book for A. a book describing who her daddy is. i can't do that all on my own, so i'm asking those of you reading this blog, if you knew P and you have something you would like to share with A about who her daddy is, please hand write or type on a 8X10 sheet of paper with a picture on it (of you and him, if possible) who he was to you. you may either e-mail it to me, send it to my house and if you don't have either, please send it to the church. that would be awesome. it'll be healing for me to put it together and great for A in the future.
God is good. Amen.
