well, since independence day, i've been sick. have the flu as people call it here. i was so tired and stuffed up for two days. today i finally got a runny nose. anyway, poor A has been deprived of mommy for a few days. during the day she is either playing with her friends, our helper or at school. i couldn't even take her to school today. it was sad. she cried. but i saved up enough energy to pick her up, but i was pooped after that. i don't have a fever but feel hot and it's not the weather. last night i had the chills and i haven't felt that in a long time... like five years.
tomorrow we were supposed to get some passport work done, but i don't think i could go, so we are going to reschedule for next week. it'll be better since i could then play with A afterward.
please pray that it'll be gone soon this flu. it takes a lot of energy to be sick. i think this is the first time since being here that i missed P so much. i just wanted someone to be able to take care of A as i was laying in bed. please pray for A as i think she associates being sick with going to heaven. she seemed nervous when i said i was sick. please pray for her little heart.
i've had some good talks this past week with a few of my friends. i'm really excited to share that my life is the way it is because of God. i love explaining how i understand that P's death did not take God off guard and that He loves me just as much. one lady said that this house is my "jodoh", which means soulmate. i told her it's because God provided. i also got to share a little about heaven and how sure i was that P was there and that A can't wait to go there and see Jesus and daddy.
one of my friends (AH) told me how me just being here was going to speak volumes to people... thanks for saying that because although i'm nothing, i'm really glad the Lord is using me in this way to show His glory to the people around me. my prayer is that i could be used for His glory to speak volumes to people.
this is kind of a scattered blog... please understand my brain is stuffed with a cold ha ha..
love you all and miss you tons!!!
