just got a text from TB telling me A is crying and if i could talk to A. i called A and my daughter is so grown up, at first she was trying to hold back her tears and then it just burst out... MOMMY~
my daughter is at TB & AB's place. i have a few busy things to take care of this week, so i went with A to spend the weekend at their place and left her there today when i came home. she did so well saying good-bye to me. just sat on the porch waving. she was anticipating it all weekend. poor girl... night times are hard without mommies. so we talked a little between her tears and sobs, but i think she'll make it. the thing is she really likes it there and she loves the aunt and uncle there... so i know she's going to have fun. Two more nights after tonight. i'm more worried for the aunt and uncle...
so it's a little bitter sweet coming home to an empty house. i kind of feel like i don't know what to do. feeding myself, relaxing... i don't have to bathe someone, feed someone, put someone to sleep... don't have to worry about getting to bed at a certain time so i'll get enough sleep before the little one wakes up. taking care of another being is pretty hard work.
i miss my baby, but at the same time, i'm so excited to spend some alone time. actually God is so good that all my tasks for tomorrow got moved to thursday, so tomorrow i'm kind of free which is great!!! planned a date with a dear friend, have to run some errands... you know me things.
please pray for A as she spends time with TB & AB. TB always tells me when i'm away from A that i will be a better mother when i come back... but i think that's so true... i think she and i will both learn to appreciate each other so much more.
