yesterday i realized it was the 15th, then thought hmmm tomorrow will be the 16th. i know i always ask this question, but was it really seven months ago. i can't believe it. time is now back to normal where i feel like a day is a day, although i do have a day here or there where it feels like a week, but mostly days are days. i can remember the time i was dreading the day to start because it just took too long to get to the next day.
P...
i can't believe you've been gone for seven months. it seems so long ago. i was with LL this past weekend and he said, "really was it just this past june". it's not just me... it seems like ages ago. we had to work through so much since you went on ahead.
i'm still having lots of fun with A, trying to make the best of our days together. you did such a good job with her... she still talks about you and remembers you. she loves you. today she asked for you.
i'm starting to love life again and seeing where God wants me to go in life. i can laugh and mean it and look at your pictures and smile at the wonderful times we had. i could look at tomorrow and really hope for a better day, not just wish... i have great friends that are so great to me and i love the friendships that i have with them... and as much as i miss you... little by little i'm finding enjoyment in these relationships that kind of fill the emptiness i was feeling since you were gone, but i realize it will never be the same as when you were my friend...
you know you were my friend right... not just a friend... you were a mentor, someone who stuck up for me, you were my tempat curhat, you were my love, my jodoh, you were my everything... i miss all that and more. i really wish i could have that back, but at the same time learning to live without it. you will always be a part of my life, but not here.
P... i was thinking today how next week we would have had our fourth honeymoon... and that made me so sad. i loved how we called our anniversaries honeymoons... last year i was so sick for our honeymoon... to have a honeymoon again... why was it only three years and like five months? i don't know... i wish we had more. i'll be thinking of you often this next week... uhh...
i think i'm going to go now... i'm tired.
love you and miss you lots...
your es
p.s. i'm running a 5k... ha ha signed up with a few friends.
**SR thanks for giving up the treadmill for me and cleaning the inside of my car. i love it!!!**
**OOPS IT'S BEEN 8 MONTHS... SEE IT'S JUST BEEN SO LONG.:)**
