(pictures of us in california)
to be with brothers and sisters in Christ praying and seeking the Lord... feeling His presence and hearing His voice is such an amazing thing. i thank the Lord daily that He wants that intimate relationship with me and i love it. PR said tonight at church how it's about Jesus... not family and Jesus... not a job and Jesus... not something and Jesus... it's all about Jesus. as much as i miss P and how i want him back, how sometimes i feel my life would be so much better if he was just here... but realizing the truth to what PR said tonight... that all i really need is Jesus. i felt that for some time... how Jesus has really become my friend, my comfort, my refuge... and even my husband... i cry as i type this... knowing well that P was my husband and again just wanting that back, but Jesus will always and forever be my husband.
i have started to really enjoy this one praise.
Lord of Heaven
Creator of the earth
Abba Father
The Lover of my soul
With all my heart I sing
The Greatness of Your name
In all the grace you give
With Boldness I draw near
And I will praise you
Come and be extolled
My eyes are on you
Let Your Glory fall
Let Your Glory fall
This is my life I give
With my heart I offer you
As a living sacrifice
All my hopes and dreams
More of You and I less of me
At the altar of grace
until all that's left is You
i sing the words and really want it to my heart. the creator of the earth being my abba... the lover of my soul.. i want to sing His greatness because He is great in my life... and how true it is of the boldness i have because of all the grace He has poured out in my life... how could you not be bold... my eyes are on Him and only Him... where else could i go... it has to be on Him... i want to truly offer my hopes and dreams... at first i thought, but God took it from me, but i'm slowly seeing that maybe there is something greater out there that He has in store for me... so i hope and dream again praying that all that's left in my life is Him. it's such a humble place i feel i'm at knowing that my life is not about me and all about our lord Jesus Christ... because if it was all about me, the story would not be so good...
i pray that my daughter would one know grow to know God our Father as her abba, the lover of her soul, her king, her comfort, her refuge... and i remember the day P and i dedicated her in front of our church stating we will raise her to be a godly person... but the thing that i am so thankful for is the rest of the congregation who got up and promised to help us raise her in that way. every member of the church stood up to promise that they would be there with us and how all of you are following through with that... as i saw A run around church today with no fear jumping into people's arms and laughing and calling out people's names... people she loves, i thought of how i am so thankful for all of you keeping your promise you made when she was 5 months old... thank you guys so much.
please pray for me as i continue to want to hear His voice... i want Him to speak to me... i want the intimate relationship He desires from me...
