what a week... it was really hard. lots of tears... miss him... hate him... questions... miss him... love him... smiles... tears... pain... smiles... miss him... want him back... hard...
A's favorite thing to say lately is, "when my get big..." so today we were talking and she said, "when my get big my go to heaven." i was so proud of her but it made my heart break. i asked her how she would get into heaven and my little girl says, "JESUS". i cried telling her i was so proud of her and so was daddy.
later i was crying and she told me not to cry. again i explain it's because i miss daddy and that it's okay if we cry. she answers, "mommy go to heaven see daddy". i told her how i wished it was that easy and cried some more.
hard week. miss him. miss him a lot!!!
