i know many have asked the question of why this had to happen?, including me. i'm not typing this blog because i have the answer, but because i wanted to share a truth. P was always good at sharing truth with people, including me. and when i found the letter last week, he left me with truth to hold on to. so even though i know i will continue to ask questions, sometimes maybe even to the point of me doubting, i know there is truth in all of this.
in the letter i found last week P mentioned the truth of God's faithfulness. P told me how we had lived in truth and how God planned things in His perfect faithfulness and that nothing happens by chance, so if i am reading the letter, it means i must hold on to that faithfulness.
i have thought how if we obeyed why we are going through this... actually why i am going through this... but the truth is... God is faithful in all things, good or bad...
again i know i don't have all the answers yet, and i know i will be crying and asking questions and crying and grieving and crying... but in the end i know i will see His hand in my life... that God is faithful and good.
i was getting ready for bed and thought of this... wanted to share it.
the thing is... i know P felt this way and i feel this way too... i'd rather go see my Maker knowing that i obeyed Him than having not.
please pray for A as she is coming up with great questions that is helping her process. please pray for me as i come up with answers and explanations for all her really insightful questions.
