the sound of the weeks going by... whoosh. it's already the last weekend of august and going into labor day marking september.
this week again has just flown by.
monday i took A on a picnic to where P and i went on dates a few times. it was great weather and lots of fun. that afternoon we then went to the park with neighbors and ended the day with dinner at a family friends house. i feel like going on that picnic took the place of going to memory park because we were remembering him.
tuesday i ran errands with A and stayed home since both of us were kind of under the weather.
wednesday we went with friends to the music box to see "the little mermaid" sing a long. it was a lot of fun. A and her friend really enjoyed it. i was sad though thinking how much i wished P was there with us.
thursday A and i helped a friend out and that turned out to be one very nice day. i actually had adult conversations and it was deep and meaningful. i really enjoyed it. then we went and celebrated my sister's birthday. this day was funny because A wanted to talk to her grandparents. so i think we called them like four times because she wanted to talk to grandma and grandpa. grandpa was golfing and she told him she did that last week. :)
today i was feeling a little sick. i have a slight ear infection, so just not doing real well. but in the afternoon, we attended a birthday party and A had so much fun. she loved the rides and the kids. she's growing up so fast. on the way to the party though, she made me cry. we were talking about daddy for some reason and she says, "i want daddy, i want to hug him, please A hug daddy". i just cried. i told her i wanted to hug him too.
we are doing well. i am working hard at trying to help her process. i really want wisdom in this. i keep asking friends "where is the manual?". but really please pray that everyday we could process together in a good healthy way. i feel like these past two days have been really good. so please lift us up.
i want to thank those of you who take my calls and listen to me under any circumstance without judgment or whatever. i really appreciate that. i love you guys.
please pray for us as we grieve, but also as i think of our future and continually listen to the Lord. i know it's not like i need to make a decision right now, but i know that God could definitely start stirring in my heart His desires as i am working through things. so please pray for that.
