grass

today to remember the third month, i took A to memory park after her nap. i don't know why, but i cried the whole way there. it's been about two weeks since we've been there and i felt like in a way i hadn't seen him in so long. i wouldn't say i was excited to go, but just this feeling of... i don't know... anyway we got there and when we got to his spot there was grass. finally there is grass growing on what once just was dirt. i cried. i don't know what it was about the grass... another sign of truth that he is gone... i don't know, but i cried. it was a weird feeling. then i thought, "oh man when the headstone goes on..." memory park... it was good to go there. as usual A and i took a snack and something fun for A to do... after a while though, i noticed a flock of geese coming toward us... with longing looks for our snack... so i picked up everything and left. :)