Grandma L has lost her dad. Grandma B has lost her husband... i was talking to GL last night. they had been preparing for Grandpa R's death for quite some time and even in this last week, they were told it's only going to be a while. some people think that's easier when you know, but really it's not. what's the difference if you know beforehand or not if someone is going to die... the thing is that the person is with you til the day they die and then there is this emptiness you still have to deal with, whether you are prepared or not. you just notice the empty seat... or the seat that they usually sit in... or you notice the wife without the husband or vise versa... i'm sure to some extent you are prepared for it more, but the thing is, the missing and loss is still there.
the house has been a little busy with people coming in and out preparing for the funeral. last night i told GL that i am kind of living vicariously through them. i didn't get to be with family preparing the funeral and talking about memories, i was miles and miles away... i didn't get all that i am seeing them do... so it's nice to see how it could have been and thankful that i get to somehow be a part of this one.
