Finally after much traveling and preparing and services and people, A and I are home. We are definitely enjoying our home and the family that have made it our home. Today we just stayed and were a family. People came and went, but the family is still here and soon that will be stability for A. That's what I've been praying for as we settle in now for a good while. I really want her to be able to understand that mommy is here and just let her feel secure. She's been doing great, but please continue to pray for her.
Last night I took A to her first fireworks show. It was so much fun as she had so many friends who wanted to play with her. I was really glad I took her. I had memories from going to the park with P and at times found myself thinking about that. I cried on my way home thinking about him and missing him (A was sleeping in the back seat).
It still seems a little unreal to me all that has happened in the past almost three weeks. I still find myself thinking that he'll be back as many have shared that they just think he's in SEA. So when it will become real, who knows, but I'm just praying that each day the Lord gives me strength. I want to say thank you for those close, family, friends and people I just met because of this event who say they are praying for me because I feel that without those prayers I wouldn't be able to have fun with A and just love her. There are times I find myself needing to cry, but even those times have been a blessing.
Tomorrow is church and I'm excited to go, but at the same time it's going to be hard. Praying for strength through that also.
Thank you to everyone who have been e-mailing and sending cards and phone calls for encouragement.
A verse that I thought of just now... Isaiah 26: 3-4... A verse P and I shared, but just came to mind.
